Where I'm at.

     Been doing a lot of thinking lately and just feeling unsure about a lot of things. What self confidence I have    has taken a nose dive as of late. And I still don't have the motivation to go to the gym and work out. Im not sure why this is. I was doing SO well before summer, but something changed over the last 3 months. I just don't have the drive to do it anymore. I was doing pretty good to. I ran a 5K and then ran 4 miles, and I was so proud. But now I'm seriously thinking about ditching the race in October. There is no way I can run a 10K. Even if I started training now it would be a joke. I got pretty arrogant I guess, I ran the 5k and did well. Then I ran the firecracker 4 and did better. I guess I just assumed I would do well with this one as well but the more I think about it the more I realize how hard it will be. I know that by doing this I may let down people, but I also let myself down. I am a little worried that I may be a bit depressed like a few people suggested. I'm hoping not because I don't want to be that Steve again. Just cant figure out what it is I lost.