Random quote

Its late and I need to get to bed. But I just wanted to share this quote. Its lengthy but worth a read. A close friend has often quoted the highlighted portion to me. I just finally got around to reading the rest. Food for thought.
     “Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh never mind; you will not 
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. 
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and 
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before 
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you 
imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as 
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing 
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that 
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm 
on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with 
people who are reckless with yours. Floss Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes 
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with 
yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you 
succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements. Stretch. Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your 
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they 
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year 
olds I know still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe 
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky 
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t 
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your 
choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, 
use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people 
think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever 
own.. Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room. Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for 
good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the 
people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you 
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and 
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you 
knew when you were young.” 
― Baz Luhrmann

The Times they are a Changing

     Bob Dylan was right when he said that Things Have Changed. Lately I have seen so many things in flux around me that I felt kind of lost. Seems as if everyone is pairing off, moving away or having kids. And then there's me. In the same place I have been for years. And when I saw how people were leaving me behind, I got pissed. Not at them, at myself. They are doing what is natural, moving on. I have been stagnant. In my heart of hearts that's not me. The real Steve likes to take chances, is brave because of all the crap he had dealt with growing up. He is charming and fun. I have hidden all that for some reason. Or more likely I had forgotten all this stuff. Why? I'm not sure. I guess it is just easier. One reason I stalled is that I wanted to be needed by people. I love helping people, to the point where it's almost a sickness. But I have come to see that I'm not needed and that I don't have to be. The one person whom needed the most help, the most of my attention was being woefully neglected. Myself. I have to start helping me.
      I was hanging out with a friend and we were talking about whats going on in our lives lately. After seeing how excited they were about things they are working on and what is in store for them, I started examining my life. There are a great many thing that I have planned on changing but just haven't seemed to get around to them yet. I always find one reason or another to avoid it. So why am I holding myself back. Fear? Self loathing? Just plain old stupidity? Maybe it is a combination of all these things. But I finally stopped all that. Or have at the very least begun to.
     I took a chance and applied for a new job, which I got. One of the easiest interviews I have ever had. I just put on an air of confidence and won them over. Not easy for me as I am chock full of self-doubt. Who knew I could be charming when I want? This new job will give me benefits, discounts, paid vacation and a full 40 hour week. I'm hoping this will give me a step towards getting into some sort of cooking career. I'm also going to be switching gyms. The YMCA is a great gym but I can get cheaper membership at the Planet Fitness next to my new job. And I will be able to just go right from work to the Gym. NO EXCUSES. In an attempt to get in better shape I have also joined Weight Watchers. Yeah I know people think Weight Watchers is just for women, but that is not the case. In recent years they have become much more male friendly, as well as technology friendly  I don't have to go to meetings and feel like I'm in AA. I can talk to people on-line and get advice and what not.  So yes I am now one of the points counting legion of WW.
      I'm also planning in taking a trip abroad solo. I always wanted to go on a trip with friends but you know what sometimes you just cant. Life doesn't always work out that way. To sum it all up I'm looking out for Numero Uno. I'm still going to be there to help my friends and family if they need it. But only if it doesn't interfere with my stuff. I'm trying to take chances and make mistakes. I'm looking forward to it. I'm still here for the friends who saw me when I was absolutely invisible, and my family who has been there for me. But its time to be a bit selfish. So wish me luck. I cant be any use to those I care about if I'm not the best me I can be. Things Have Changed.