Wow I havent posted here in quite a long time, over a month. I have been absolutely horrible about going to the gym for oh most of July and August. Most nights I come home from work, make dinner and eat and drink a few beers by myself and just lounge around. My cooking has gotten better but that's about it.
I can try to come up with a dozen excuses why I have stopped caring, but none of them are good. I can argue that I'm tired and such but its not that. Somewhere along the way I lost what ever was inspiring me to go. Not sure how I can find it again. I even have lost interest in the 10K I signed up for that takes place in October. I felt like a million bucks after my the 4 mile run on the fourth. But something changed, and I cant put my finger on it. I know I'm letting people down but I just don't care in a way.
Part of the reason I don't go is I feel so out of place, as I try to figure out how to do the weights and such. I'm lost. I looked into personal trainers and they are a little pricey. So I cant do that right now. Hoping its just a funk. I was feeling pretty damn good about myself there for a little bit. And going to the gym was a huge part of that. It helped my self esteem. I could really use that right now.I wanted to things like run a half marathon then a marathon or even do all kinds of outdoors stuff. But now I kind of just dont give a care. Any advice would be much appreciated.
