Monday, January 2, 2012

Oh Hai there.

     Steven James Belsito of Saratoga Springs passed away this week due to heart complications at the age of 35. He is survived by his Mother, several Brothers and Sisters as well as numerous Nieces and Nephews. A long time Saratoga resident Mr Belsito graduated from Saratoga Springs High School. Mr Belsito was a sufferer of diabetes and had high blood pressure.  His hobbies were watching TV, reading and cooking and eating with family and friends. While he always dreamed of traveling the world, Mr Belsitos health kept him from doing so. In lue of flowers the Belsito family asks that donations be made to the American Heart Association.

     This is what I had assumed my future would be when I was about 25. I was all to well aware of the fact that I was morbidly obese, and ran the risk of several health problems that being overweight only made worse. Diabetes runs in my family as do heart problems, so being as heavy as I was only made it worse. I was oddly content with this future. Until I made the decision a couple of years ago that life was worth living, and living it well, meant I had to get in better shape. I have some big guns in my arsenal in this war against myself. I have the best friends anyone can ask for. They urge me to do things that I don't think I can. I'm not sure what it is they see, but they help me see this version of myself that I never knew existed. Now I'm not doing this for them, honestly its all about me but they are an invaluable help. Some have helped by just taking walks late at night after work, others have helped by giving me a self esteem boost when needed. One or two others bullied me into getting a gym membership, or trying to run a 5k. I'm an extraordinarily lucky SOB to have these people in my life. And I thank them all. With out their help I wouldn't have lost the close to 70 pounds I have already lost.

    So now what do I do about the weight I have left? I still have a lot to lose and I have to step up my game. I have been trying to find the determination it takes to go the gym every day. Its so hard but I can do this. I'm doing a mix of weight lifting and cardio, while changing to a sensible diet. I don't want to be a muscle head, I just wanna be able to go the beach and not be embarrassed to take my shirt off. I mean come on I have a bitching Batman tattoo to show off. Its not fair to the world that they miss out on that. I looked at different diet plans and after some research I think I'm going to try the Dash diet plan. This diet started as a heart healthy diet and has garnered much acclaim as the best diet out there right now. It has been rated as the # 1 Diet for the last 2 years. There are a lot of other diet plans that advocate cutting out certain food groups while over doing it on others. I have never thought very much of these types of diets. A well balanced has always made so much more sense. Here is a link for an interesting article in US news that talked about the best diets around. http://health.usnews.com/best-diet/best-overall-diets. I found this rather informative and it helped me. As for or working out I'm just trying to get to the point where I don't feel like a moron when I go the weight lifting area. While no one has ever said anything to me while back there, I feel like I'm being judged. I am fully aware that this is just me being awkward and judgmental but it is a bit intimidating to go back there.

     Whats the end goal, what is it I want to achieve by the end of this? I want to be healthy and have a much better sense of self esteem. I wanna be able to play sports with friends and not be a hindrance. I want to live to see my nieces and nephews grow up and be healthy and fit enough to spend time with them. The big pay off though, what really has me trying to do this is what I plan on rewarding myself with when ( not if ) I lose all the weight. I plan on taking a trip across the county. On this trip I want to do things that being a huskier guy I haven't been able to do. I wanna go kayaking, sand dune surfing, hike a volcano, all kinds of out door adventures that being a fatty has hindered me from doing. My plan is to get a couple of friends to make this trip with me and just camp across the nation. All the while having fun and experiencing life.

     I plan on using this blog to keep an account of how I do. The ups and downs, the whole damn thing. This way I'm held accountable in a sense to others. This way also I can receive advice and tips from people who may be able to help. So any suggestions you have will be greatly appreciated.

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